My Reality

So I have been 40 for a whole week now. In those 40 years I have had 2 real girlfriends.  So when I’m asked if I’m gonna get married or have kids??? The answer is always a no. Not because I don’t want it but because it might not be in the cards for me. I have liked a lot of females but friendship was what was meant for us. And I know that was because I was the one placed in the friend zone. But last night I cried! Even tho I except this as my reality.  Sometimes it still hurts!