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No Idling

It’s been long said that an idle mind is the devils playground. I’m finna occupy that space and not let Lucifer the chance to play around. 

Inverse of all of that, God certainly doesn’t love ugly. One of the few men I will say that’s above me. 

And when it comes to men, you will not find another like me. Your words not mine. Such a tragedy. 

But off of that cause life isn’t about the petty shit. Higher powers will always direct you to what is really meant. 

Occupy my mind is the only direction in which I’m heading. It may be a long road but I’m ready for the heavy sledding. 

Nothing in this life worth having will come easy. When Lucifer tempts you with an easier path. Don’t take it, please believe me.

Life

I Can’t Swim….

Jumped into a pool knowing that I could not swim. Jumped in head first knowing that’s when life would begin. Lack of knowledge will be the downfall in the end.

Breathe…

Took a step back because a new journey could end at the very point in which it began. Soak up all of the information and just breathe it all in.

Live(Life)…

In order to live you must first have your feet planted firmly in the ground. To truly live is to dive in, head first and drown.

Karma

All time is precious and it’s always easy to consider your own. Out partying all night never considering that he was alone. Scenarios swapped and now you’re on the other side. Confronted by your own hypocrisy with nowhere to run and nowhere to hide. With all time considered, you figured you could just sit back and watch. His fabric was different, he was cut from a different cloth. Fully dressed ideas now only come to you while sit by your self on the couch. Sadly those thoughts were Midas without the golden touch. Moral of the story is watch how you act when times are really, really good. It can bite you in the ass in ways you never thought it could or would…..

How Things Can Change

She said she would always have his back. Especially when no one else would stay. Talking the biggest game knowing damn well she wouldn’t do the things that she did say. Words are just that and they can mean whatever that you want em. As it would turn out, she never truly had the capacity to actually believe them. She wanted a validity that never could have come from him. When all else failed, she simply blamed it all on them. A lifetime passed and she saw that nothing changed. A lifetime passed but the blame just got rearranged! She had a big ass house with nothing else to show. Lights shining bright, not even a shadow could be found on the low. From the lows to the high they knew they were gonna make it through the night. Always remember fighting through the dark that they knew could get you them to their light!!!

 

Reading Materials

They were never on the same page. Even tho they were reading from the same book. They read all the of the words at some point. But unfortunately the bigger picture is what they both overlooked. She wanted one thing and he wanted the same. When she wanted it to happen, it was him she had to blame. He told her, baby I love you but she couldn’t understand why! She was still feeling the rejections brought upon from some other guy! He asked her to explain and she gave him and incredulous look. It was at this point he realized. They were never reading from the same book.

Still Hopeful

My heart melts every time she looks me in the eyes. Wondering if it’s me or just how she looks at all of the guys. I want to be loved solely off of what I think she see’s in me. Given the chance. I will always try to live up to be man you need me to be!!!! Always someone to never bite my tongue and always keep it real. Give you the truth always, no matter how it makes you feel. I would expect the same from you cause your opinion would always matter. Our minds working in unison, never ever listening to the  outside chatter! With her big head, big eyes. Well her damn near big everything. I can only imagine what type of happiness this union could truly bring. Still hopeful!!!!

Monstah #2017

My written words go unseen for whatever the reason. When its meant for her. I may not be the one for her season. Put myself on the line. It feels like I’m fishing for a compliment. Reeling in the wrong ones has always been to my detriment. Learning from my mistakes may lead me to be a better man. But through those mistakes she can probably do better than….

Finished Thought 10-30

Maybe I’m the good guy. Or maybe I’m the devil with a good heart. Negativity could lead you to believe I was the wrong one from the start!!! Blaming me from the beginning not even realizing you were playing a part! Part of me becoming the villian that I came to be. Looking in the mirror and not recognizing the man I used to see.  I eventually saw myself thru a new set of eyes. A pair that doesn’t judge and aren’t made up to disguise. Your true feelings that are no longer masked by lies. Unseen thoughts that have led you to despise. Love used to be measurr by which we judged each other. Now we can’t stand to be around one another. Goodbye!

Monstah 2016

Nothing was the same as soon as I saw your face. Once we we locked eyes, everything fell into place! I found my comfort zone or at least where I can be me. A smile on my face is the only image I want you to see. Cornball or cheesy is the only way I can be described! Drink my spirit in is how I want to be imbibed! One minute I’m here and then I’m on some newness. Even when I know, I come off as if I’m clueless. Bottles popped and we are on to some new shit. I couldn’t ever imagine my life without this! Everyday presents a new challenge, something else for us to deal with. Overcoming it all because we only deal with the realness. The heart will always want what it wants even based off of resistance. My heart will say it will happen based off of persistence!!!! #modm