So much to be desired and a lot of words left unsaid. Life is so much better inside my head. Meeting Mrs. Right and her being the one i wed. Life is so much better inside of my head. Wedding bells rang, Valentines days always chock full of red. Life is so much better inside my head. Children birthed out of love conceived right there in that bed. Life is so much better inside my head. Following in our footsteps from the example we have led. Life is so much better inside my head. Grandchildren’s ears always perked practicing everything we said. Life is so much better inside my head. A fulfilled life is the one I wish I had led. Life was so much better inside of my head….
The year is gonna end the same way it started. Running, chasing the love train that has already departed. I thought love was a ghost that I was merely chasing. An idea that has left me stagnant and complacent. It’s not a ghost but just a feeling that was never meant for me. I live in a dreaming state cause its easier to face than reality. Realistically speaking I’m trying to outlive some things I’ve come to regret. Punishment fitting the crime is the only thing I’ve come to expect. In my mind my sentence should’ve been completed awhile ago. But when it’s matters of the heart, one can never know. Through all of that, I hope that all this will change with you. Behind even the darkest cloud lies a sky that is blue.
I can’t talk to you well at least not the way I want to. Rules are meant to be followed but I’d break them all for you. Whenever I’m around you I just think that that’s where I need to be. I think you feel it to, just by the way you interact with me. I wanna be your everything and that’s for damn sure. I’ll give you the world and on top of that, so much more. Heart never empty cause I’ll overflow it with love girl. Fulfill all of your needs is why I was placed in your world. By the the time I muster up the courage, I fear it’ll be too late. Or maybe enough time will pass and you might find me to be your soulmate. I hope for the latter but if it happens to be the former. Then it’s time to get my courage up and find the words to tell her….