Timing

There is never a better time than the present
Timing is everything is what the masses say.
We chose today on a whim and prayer.
Whatever may happen at least we had today

On your worst day i hope we can
Sit and a have a deep conversation.
I want to fall in love with your mind.
All I ask is that you give me some mental stimulation.

Maybe that’s is not on the table
And you did me a favor just to be kind.
Sometimes we all need a break
And an opportunity to just unwind.

I thought I did my best but
Life has a way of reminding me that
You planted a seed in many
Hoping to find yourself in someone
Who will love you unconditionally!

Maybe love is not on your brain
And I can definitely understand that.
You let me into your world
And I was never scared and that’s a fact.

Whatever is meant to will always be
But in time that will be revealed.
I will help you work through whatever.
Or I will be there when you are fully healed.

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Her BS

I hate that you might just be

Up to all of your old antics.

Coming around when I’m needed

Feels like you playing the classics!

How you doing and how I’m feeling

Seem to be just conversation starters.

Sorting through your own feelings

Completely neglecting those of ours!

Sit and listen to all your grievances

Holding my tongue cause you are guilty.

Of the same grievances you carry

And hold them firmly against me.

Walked away, although it was hard

For me, that’s only ammunition for you to

Play that I never, ever cared card.

Cards were dealt, never in any order

I always played them as they were dealt.

Queens greater than Kings

Was just a young Jack is how I felt.

Blurred was my vision unfortunately

I tried to smile through the bs but

Tears could only comfort me.

Laughter was probably the last thing

That I should remember you by.

You left when I made you feel good

And you left me with the option was to cry.

Your story could be a super sad one but

You will always be your biggest issue.

I was your shoulder to cry on but

Now you will need a whole roll of tissue!!

Allll….one….Again!!!

Sometimes doing your best for others
Will leave you feeling all vulnerable.
Giving your all to the next person
And leaving you with the feeling of being alone.

Walking back and forth thru these thoughts
Have led me to a very dark place.
A very much long winded journey.
That has ultimately made me miss you in this chase.

Lonely thoughts paraded around my mind
Always and forever only asking the question why?
Marching around back and forth my mind
Making me ask questions and never receiving a reply.

I didn’t just wanted to be loved but
I just wanted to be loved by you.
Life will always happen for a reason
But alone is how I’ll feel till I’m next to you.

Eat These Words

They said that if you freed your mind
Then the the rest would follow.
Unfortunately you were hard headed and
Your pride you wouldn’t swallow.

Closed minded you talked a lot
And you convinced yourself of the bs.
Inflammatory thoughts you had
Kept your mind in distress.

If you would’ve shut the fuck up
And just sat down and listen.
The lessons you would’ve heard
Would’ve been worth the free admission.

But since you ain’t freely admitting
You will always be stuck in your old ways
And always finding yourself unfortunately
Looking back on all of the bad days.

I put your feelings ahead of mine
Never batted an eye was happy to do it.
Reciprocity is only cool
When I don’t have to ask for it.

If you allowed yourself to stick around
And listened to what I said from the start.
You might have have digested the messasge
And nourished on the very best part…..

In Between Thoughts

I made the bold move to greet you and
I don’t know if you are here for a reason.
Not sure if this was meant to last long
Or sadly just another wasted season.

I stepped firmly out of a zone in which
You have never seen me implanted in.
I could paint you a very dark image but
I want you to see me in my very on skin.

Ups and downs, the rollercoaster of life
I don’t ride my life wearing a safety belt.
Sadness has built up an iceberg that
Even your happiness probably couldn’t melt.

That is all very much speculation though
Because i do not know much about you.
The introvert in me says leave her alone but
My heart says she is not what you are used to.

What i do i know is very simply this.
It is out of my thoughts and into your eyes.
What is real and what is not I am hoping
That somewhere the real truth lies!!!!

No Idling

It’s been long said that an idle mind is the devils playground. I’m finna occupy that space and not let Lucifer the chance to play around. 

Inverse of all of that, God certainly doesn’t love ugly. One of the few men I will say that’s above me. 

And when it comes to men, you will not find another like me. Your words not mine. Such a tragedy. 

But off of that cause life isn’t about the petty shit. Higher powers will always direct you to what is really meant. 

Occupy my mind is the only direction in which I’m heading. It may be a long road but I’m ready for the heavy sledding. 

Nothing in this life worth having will come easy. When Lucifer tempts you with an easier path. Don’t take it, please believe me.

Life

I Can’t Swim….

Jumped into a pool knowing that I could not swim. Jumped in head first knowing that’s when life would begin. Lack of knowledge will be the downfall in the end.

Breathe…

Took a step back because a new journey could end at the very point in which it began. Soak up all of the information and just breathe it all in.

Live(Life)…

In order to live you must first have your feet planted firmly in the ground. To truly live is to dive in, head first and drown.

Darkness .

She told him straight up baby hate me now and I promise that you will thank me later. Time passed and she was right. He wished he never did date her. She was a wolf dressed in sheep’s clothing and all he saw was what the minds eye was trained to see. Her inside beauty could never meet her outsides expectancy. But with life there were some good days. Only to be overpowered by the bad ones. His forgiving heart couldn’t see it until the ink had dry and the wall had fallen. Trying to pick up the pieces he couldn’t understand why this was his life. Picked up one of those pieces and now he will never find his wife…

Karma

All time is precious and it’s always easy to consider your own. Out partying all night never considering that he was alone. Scenarios swapped and now you’re on the other side. Confronted by your own hypocrisy with nowhere to run and nowhere to hide. With all time considered, you figured you could just sit back and watch. His fabric was different, he was cut from a different cloth. Fully dressed ideas now only come to you while sit by your self on the couch. Sadly those thoughts were Midas without the golden touch. Moral of the story is watch how you act when times are really, really good. It can bite you in the ass in ways you never thought it could or would…..